4 Years Old

Austin Martin Wilcox was born into our family 4 years ago today! What an adventure we have had since then! So many emotions felt, obstacles defeated, hearts softened, relationships mended, and testimonies strengthened all because of this angel baby who we only knew for 8 hours.
He has been such blessing to have in our family! He often reminds me that he loves me and that I am doing a great job. He keeps my head up when I am down, pushes me out of bed when despair knocks on my door, reminds me of the love Christ has for me, I love him for that... My heart is heavy, but joyful all at the same time, is that possible?? I'm not sure... but I'm feeling it.
Often times when I am rocking Tanner I remind myself, "You have two sons, you know." Then my heart drops and breaks, then shatters into a millions dust bits knowing that only one of my sons is here with me, but I can't think that way because I was told once by a women who experience the same thing, she said with stern look on her face, "Do you know how special you are to have a child like Austin? Do you realize he chose YOU to be his mother?? No one else in the world could have been his mother but YOU! He is a valent son of our Heavenly Father who needed to get back to the Lords work."
I know that I have a special little family, and I am grateful to be apart of it.


       Our Precious Baby
Our precious baby was born today
Perfectly formed in every way
From the bottom of his feet
To the top of his head
This is the day any parent would dread
Only 1.07 pounds at 24 weeks
I held him in my arms as I brushed his soft cheeks
Being struck with amazement of my little man
I thought of my Heavenly Father and His eternal plan
Families are forever: our temple sealing makes it so
For this trial set before me is to help my testimony grow
Austin is my motivation, the anchor in my shore
So I can return to my Heavenly Father
And be with my baby once more.