Showing posts with label Motherhood. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Motherhood. Show all posts
February 22, 2012
Tanner's Drawing
I love how precise he is! And yes, he is coloring with a permanent marker. I have no idea why he demands to keep drawing with these.
November 22, 2011
And I Said Hey!!
Tanner as you know is such a little artist! It is so much fun for me to see him develop his talent without much teaching. He started watching this 8 year old show called Arthur during the summer and became obsessed.
Then this morning as I was busy I hear him yell, "I did it!" I respond, "Good job baby!!" But I didn't look at what he did. Then Tanner says, "Mommy, mommy... look it!!! Arthur!" I came into the living room and my eyes welt up and was in shock that my two year old put all of these circles together and made Arthur! Arms and legs even! I think I am more shocked at Arthurs ears, so neatly placed...amazing! I seriously want to send this into the show as fan mail!
October 31, 2011
Drawing
Tanner is getting really good at drawing lately. I have been wanting to take a picture of his latest work but the paper gets thrown out before I remember to snap a picture. This morning he has been really quiet in his room doodling on the chair's ottoman (without my knowledge of course).... Check it!
What great detailing for a 2 year old! A half smiling, toupee wearing alien man!
September 10, 2011
Brynlee Faith Petersen
I am so grateful and blessed to be here in Minnesota at this time in my life. Since moving here I have honestly felt that we are here only because of Steven's new job and that I am just forced to find my own niche and move on with some purpose in my life here in Tinysota. However, in the last couple days the Lord has just blessed me with so much strength, beyond my own, and given me such feeling of purpose.
We have wonderful friends here who are Leah and Randy and live fairly close to us, they have helped us move here, helped us transition some, and their son Logan and our little Tanner are the best of buds, both are aggressive with each other, in a fun playful way, which makes it nice for both Leah and I to let them goof off together.
Before we moved here Leah told me they are expecting a sweet baby girl. While being here it has been so much fun watching that belly of hers grow and fun to listen to her joys and woes of pregnancy. And in this last month Erin and I started plans for her shower since her due date was coming; October 13th. My mind was on a high as I had all these cute girly gift ideas swirled through out my mind.
On September 8, 2011 I was getting ready to leave home to start picking up some sewing things I would need for my project, but was held off when Leah gives me a call with news I could hardly bare, "We lost her..." is all I could really remember from our conversation. My heart sunk and pounded in empathy as I went completely numb while taken quickly back in time to January 12, 2007... Laying in bed at the hospital as my nurse turns to me and says, "I'm so sorry... I am so, so sorry honey, he is gone!"
Leah went into the hospital that night to begin labor and soon delivery of her perfect stillborn baby girl, Brynlee. I am SO grateful for her hospital for the help and support they gave her. Leah had a wonderful organization come in called the Missing Grace Foundation who help guide her through this tragic experience. As for me my support was from my doctor saying, "It's okay, you'll have another one."
I rushed to the hospital the next morning feeling such anxiety and pain for her. The hallway just seemed to grow long as I walked down it... As I got to her door, room #6, I saw a white flower mounted onto it and felt so strange knowing it was me this time being the other side of it all. As I opened the door what peace I felt wash over me, I quickly ran over to give Leah hug as I pulled away my eyes were graced by this beautiful, perfect, precious baby Brynlee. Leah said, "It was the cord... wrapped 4 times around her neck..." The cord?? Ugggg.... It was as simple as the cord. I could write a novel about my anger with that darn umbilical cord, but I will spare you with that.
Randy proudly introduced me to Brynlee and I could not help but think how blessed and privilege I was to be in the presence of such a prefect celestial being. What a sleeping beauty....
Hours seemed to fly by but the world stood still in that room. I felt so lucky to be able to hold her. I rocked her ever so gently in the rocking chair and when I'd close my eyes I felt her presence in the room. My chest was so full that it could have exploded if it were physically possible.
Brynlee was so warm, she smelt so good... of lavender, it was so calming... While rocking Brynlee I held her tiny, delicate hand with one finger and examined her by tracing different parts of her silky warm face with my other hand, and oh... how I just fell in love with her ruby red lips... she truly looked like a princess to me. Even though it was hard for me I could not help but to see a little bit of Austin in her.
I saw so many tender moments... I saw Leah's sweet motherly touches as she rocked Brynlee on her chest. Leah pressed her cheek up to Brynlee's and gently kissed her, then I noticed the warm colors of the September sun filtering into the room highlighting mother and child. My heart just ached with her's when she said, "I'm running out of time... Can't I turn back the clock?" Having to let a baby go is heart wrenching... You know you have to do it, but how? And seeing Randy tend and love his baby girl was unreal! He made sure she was warm in her blanket, talked to her, and embraced her in his arms of protection. I know Brynlee is proud she is his daughter.
It was soon getting late and I wanted Leah and Randy to have there alone time with Brynlee, I bent over to say my goodbyes to this sweet angle baby, gently scooped up her graceful hand and kissed her goodbye and heard a whisper in my ear... I turned and looked at Leah with a smile and said, "You know what? Austin just told me he has a huge crush on Brynlee!! We giggled and together while Leah responded, "Yeah, our children do get along quite well, don't they!"
As I got into my car that late afternoon I sat there so quietly... wishing for this feeling to not ever go away. I did not want to move, I sat motionless as I felt embraced by Austin. As I breathed I felt as though he went through me... 4 1/2 years I have been grieving and struggling, but that day I had never felt this good. Being able to spend time with Brynlee felt as though I was given the second chance to be with Austin again. To be able to rock her brought lots of mending to my heart and soul.
Leah and Randy,
I can not tell you enough, THANK YOU for letting me share your burden. I feel so blessed to be apart of your lives and feel eternally grateful for the healing Brynlee gave me that day. Brynlee is a child of God, and He has sent her here! Has given her an earthly home with parents kind and dear! Brynlee will lead you, guide you, walk beside you, help you find your way, teach you all that you must do to live with her someday.
We have wonderful friends here who are Leah and Randy and live fairly close to us, they have helped us move here, helped us transition some, and their son Logan and our little Tanner are the best of buds, both are aggressive with each other, in a fun playful way, which makes it nice for both Leah and I to let them goof off together.
Before we moved here Leah told me they are expecting a sweet baby girl. While being here it has been so much fun watching that belly of hers grow and fun to listen to her joys and woes of pregnancy. And in this last month Erin and I started plans for her shower since her due date was coming; October 13th. My mind was on a high as I had all these cute girly gift ideas swirled through out my mind.
On September 8, 2011 I was getting ready to leave home to start picking up some sewing things I would need for my project, but was held off when Leah gives me a call with news I could hardly bare, "We lost her..." is all I could really remember from our conversation. My heart sunk and pounded in empathy as I went completely numb while taken quickly back in time to January 12, 2007... Laying in bed at the hospital as my nurse turns to me and says, "I'm so sorry... I am so, so sorry honey, he is gone!"
Leah went into the hospital that night to begin labor and soon delivery of her perfect stillborn baby girl, Brynlee. I am SO grateful for her hospital for the help and support they gave her. Leah had a wonderful organization come in called the Missing Grace Foundation who help guide her through this tragic experience. As for me my support was from my doctor saying, "It's okay, you'll have another one."
I rushed to the hospital the next morning feeling such anxiety and pain for her. The hallway just seemed to grow long as I walked down it... As I got to her door, room #6, I saw a white flower mounted onto it and felt so strange knowing it was me this time being the other side of it all. As I opened the door what peace I felt wash over me, I quickly ran over to give Leah hug as I pulled away my eyes were graced by this beautiful, perfect, precious baby Brynlee. Leah said, "It was the cord... wrapped 4 times around her neck..." The cord?? Ugggg.... It was as simple as the cord. I could write a novel about my anger with that darn umbilical cord, but I will spare you with that.
Randy proudly introduced me to Brynlee and I could not help but think how blessed and privilege I was to be in the presence of such a prefect celestial being. What a sleeping beauty....
Hours seemed to fly by but the world stood still in that room. I felt so lucky to be able to hold her. I rocked her ever so gently in the rocking chair and when I'd close my eyes I felt her presence in the room. My chest was so full that it could have exploded if it were physically possible.
Brynlee was so warm, she smelt so good... of lavender, it was so calming... While rocking Brynlee I held her tiny, delicate hand with one finger and examined her by tracing different parts of her silky warm face with my other hand, and oh... how I just fell in love with her ruby red lips... she truly looked like a princess to me. Even though it was hard for me I could not help but to see a little bit of Austin in her.
I saw so many tender moments... I saw Leah's sweet motherly touches as she rocked Brynlee on her chest. Leah pressed her cheek up to Brynlee's and gently kissed her, then I noticed the warm colors of the September sun filtering into the room highlighting mother and child. My heart just ached with her's when she said, "I'm running out of time... Can't I turn back the clock?" Having to let a baby go is heart wrenching... You know you have to do it, but how? And seeing Randy tend and love his baby girl was unreal! He made sure she was warm in her blanket, talked to her, and embraced her in his arms of protection. I know Brynlee is proud she is his daughter.
It was soon getting late and I wanted Leah and Randy to have there alone time with Brynlee, I bent over to say my goodbyes to this sweet angle baby, gently scooped up her graceful hand and kissed her goodbye and heard a whisper in my ear... I turned and looked at Leah with a smile and said, "You know what? Austin just told me he has a huge crush on Brynlee!! We giggled and together while Leah responded, "Yeah, our children do get along quite well, don't they!"
As I got into my car that late afternoon I sat there so quietly... wishing for this feeling to not ever go away. I did not want to move, I sat motionless as I felt embraced by Austin. As I breathed I felt as though he went through me... 4 1/2 years I have been grieving and struggling, but that day I had never felt this good. Being able to spend time with Brynlee felt as though I was given the second chance to be with Austin again. To be able to rock her brought lots of mending to my heart and soul.
Leah and Randy,
I can not tell you enough, THANK YOU for letting me share your burden. I feel so blessed to be apart of your lives and feel eternally grateful for the healing Brynlee gave me that day. Brynlee is a child of God, and He has sent her here! Has given her an earthly home with parents kind and dear! Brynlee will lead you, guide you, walk beside you, help you find your way, teach you all that you must do to live with her someday.
July 6, 2011
Horse
Okay, someone tell me when and how Tanner grew so fast? I have noticed the last week or so that he randomly says alphabet letters when he sees words around. I thought I would put him to the test to see if he really was saying his letters. I am just so in love with this kid!!!!
Towards the end of the video he has a booger face...sorry he has a cold.
July 1, 2011
Yesterday's Lunch
I have been toying around with Tanner's nap time since he is getting old, testing the waters to see how long he can go before putting him down for naps so I can run errands and all. Thanks Auntie Anna for capturing this...
June 27, 2011
Tanner Gymnastics!
This is Tanner's first time on the trampoline! I am glad he caught on quickly!
He gets on the mat and seem to know what just to do! GOOO TANNER!
He gets on the mat and seem to know what just to do! GOOO TANNER!
February 24, 2011
In the meantime...
We have been so busy trying to move... I will post about what we are up to in a couple days, but in the meantime here is what Tanner thinks of Thomas the Train.... :)
November 10, 2010
L.A. Zoo
Steven hit the half way mark in his last semester of school a couple weeks ago, which meant that I had to drive him to school due to lack of sleep, or I should say NO sleep for three days. Tanner and I dropped off Daddy at school and off to the zoo! It was LOTS of fun this time... last time he was too young to care.
The highlight of my trip. I love his little jump toward the end.
The highlight of his trip. First time exploring the playground at the zoo.
The highlight of my trip. I love his little jump toward the end.
The highlight of his trip. First time exploring the playground at the zoo.
October 16, 2010
Amy's Farm
Last Wednesday Tanner and I was invited on a field trip to Amy's Farm in Ontario. We had so much fun spending time with the animals, and his friends of course. Here are some pictures from our adventure.
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| First time seeing a cow |
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| Wilber!! Thats his name, really! |
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| He was not a huge fan of the goats |
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| Do I really want to give it a try? |
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| Milkin' the cow |
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| Surprisingly he was gentle with the bunnies |
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| At the end of our trip we got to take home a pumpkin! |
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| It was 100 degrees, NO JOKE! Poor kid... I would be mad too if my mom made me sit on hay in that kind of heat, itchy! |
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| This is a keeper! |
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| Tanner one year ago. |
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| I love you little man!! :) |
September 26, 2010
Oh, Tanner Boy
Tanner has been staying very busy every day keeping up with his daily work load! His job entails, but not limited to: taste testing the kitty's food, making sure the water temperature in the toilet is just right, changing the password to mommy and daddy's computer, restarting the washing machine when a load is almost done, and showing his loving affection to the poor little kittens.
It's sometimes a challenge to get him to just chill, so today when I put on Curious George for Tanner and I...
he walked over to me and cuddled right in my lap! Let me just tell you how my heart melted. I didn't want to miss a moment of it, so daddy snapped a few precious pictures that I just had to share.
I love our little guy so much!! He is the light of my life, the reason I still breath. I am so grateful for him and how much he teaches me. I am LOVING this age, independent yet still wants my hugs and kisses. I could not ask for more.
I am so proud of Tanner! I have been waiting for his first words for quite some time. Is it mommy? or daddy?? Nope it's....
During church when he needs to be reverent we ask him this question and he bows his head, so if you see my reverent child at church you'll know whats going on. ;)
It's sometimes a challenge to get him to just chill, so today when I put on Curious George for Tanner and I...
he walked over to me and cuddled right in my lap! Let me just tell you how my heart melted. I didn't want to miss a moment of it, so daddy snapped a few precious pictures that I just had to share.
I love our little guy so much!! He is the light of my life, the reason I still breath. I am so grateful for him and how much he teaches me. I am LOVING this age, independent yet still wants my hugs and kisses. I could not ask for more.
I am so proud of Tanner! I have been waiting for his first words for quite some time. Is it mommy? or daddy?? Nope it's....
During church when he needs to be reverent we ask him this question and he bows his head, so if you see my reverent child at church you'll know whats going on. ;)
July 18, 2010
Tanner's 1st Birthday Party
We had LOADS of fun! Thanks to all who came. :)
Tanner swimming with daddy.
The kids all had fun on the slide. What a great pool!
Tanner's cake. I had so much fun decorating it.
"I want to eat it!!!"
"Sing happy birthday to me already!"
"OH BOY!!!"
"Stop singing to me!! Your scaring me..."
Yeah, Tanner!!!
Tanner's real birthday was two days before his party, so we got him a little cake and celebrated at home. His reaction to it all was exactly the same when we sang to him at his birthday party. Poor kid. (Sorry it's so dark.)
Tanner received lots of awesome gifts, thanks everyone!
My mom's awesome watermelon shark.
Tanner swimming with daddy.
The kids all had fun on the slide. What a great pool!
Tanner's cake. I had so much fun decorating it.
"I want to eat it!!!"
"Sing happy birthday to me already!"
"OH BOY!!!"
"Stop singing to me!! Your scaring me..."
Yeah, Tanner!!!
Tanner's real birthday was two days before his party, so we got him a little cake and celebrated at home. His reaction to it all was exactly the same when we sang to him at his birthday party. Poor kid. (Sorry it's so dark.)
Tanner received lots of awesome gifts, thanks everyone!
The kids decorated the front entrance way, can you see the fish?
My mom's awesome watermelon shark.
April 5, 2010
March 30, 2010
The Easter Bunny
The Easter Bunny dropped off our baskets early! Now I don't have to worry about getting them done. Thanks Easter Bunny! :)
March 23, 2010
My baby seal!
This is what Tanner was doing ALL night. We took him to the doctors this morning and he has it, yes you guessed it right, the croup!!! Poor little guy...
Learned that there is not much to do for a croup, except to sit with him on the johnny while the hot shower steams up the room, go outside and get the cold air down the throat. The doctor did give him some steroids to help with tonight because supposedly that's when it flares up. It is hard because you just want to give him all the liquids he can take because it just sounds so dry, but he refuses to eat most the time. I do have the cold mist humidifier going in the bedroom, which is really nice for me too.
We will be indoors for a while, so cabin fever don't EVEN think about coming over or else we will give YOU the croup.
Get better little man. Mommy loves you!
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