Hope is close at hand...

Last week I had an appointment with a chiropractor here in Minnesota due to a fender bender in December. I know...I know I put it off. Anyway, I have had pretty moderate lower back pain and thought since I had a free pass to the chiropractor, why not go. I got a surface EMG scan, which reads your entire spine and can see where the damage is located. The lower back was moderate, just as I thought, but when he finished up to my neck it was in the red zone! I was shocked because I have no pain in my neck at all. The doctor asked if I was experiencing, dizziness, nervousness, and depression.

All of which are things I have been fighting with for about 3 years now. So I went home educated enough to now know that my neck could be the reasoning behind my struggles. Today as I was sitting on the couch with Tanner, I was reminiscing of the past and it was like the lightning bolt had hit me. I have blamed my anxiety/depression on loosing our son Austin, being homesick, and just trying to come to terms with the "way" that I am, just plain sensitive. I am pretty sure the adventures we have had the last couple years have helped magnify these issue, no doubt, but today is when I realized why I am not recovering.
After returning back to work after Austin I would play around in the gym (gymnastics gym). It was very therapeutic for me. I remember just like yesterday... I was doing a double front into a pit, but this time I knew something was off but once your in the air you either go for it all the way or try your best to bock out of it, well I thought I could go for it, but I was wrong. I landed on my head/neck. I remember just laying there blacked out with stars for a minute or two and felt immobilized. I was able to shake it off and just told myself, "that's what you get for messing around." Soon later that week I got a CRAZY panic attack. Blamed it on my stressers in life and did nothing for it. To make a long story short, the fender bender that I was in didn't caused my neck injury. I did more research and found out neck injuries can cause chest pain as well, most of you know of my fun excursion to the ER thinking I had a heart attack.
This is a HUGE break through for me! I have a chiropractic appointment tomorrow to get my first adjustment. I'll go 2 times a week and see if I can make any progress. I can't wait! Three years is WAY to long to suffer from a hidden injury.