Can I be pulled anymore???

The last couple days I have been over doing myself! I think I am a pretty good little athlete but Tanner is proving me otherwise. I am putting on a gym show for my work coming up and I am spending extra hours at the gym just trying to get it all done by the 13th of June (this has been a project for me since January! :P). While at work yesterday all my teeth were in pain and my right arm  got numb, I knew right off the bat that I need to slow down!!! For those who don't know what that means for me, it meant that a panic attack was on the fritz. AHHHH.... last year for the show my buddy Christian put it on, and I was able to help her, here and there, in the background. Now I feel like pulling out my hair because I am all alone :( !!! I constantly have nightmares about it and, getting VERY possessive over everything (Christian, you know what I am talking about). Anyway, it will all be over in two weeks and then I can worry about my next project for work... LEAVING!!!! Well for maternity leave anyway...hehe

 I am now seeing the doctor twice a week, doing a test called the NST, Non Stress Test. It is a test to keep recored of his heart rate to make sure all is well. It is so cool to see the doctor twice a week and listen to Tanner's heart for 30 minutes!!! Every once and a while I feel like, "Okay, I am done now!" But then I read one of my friends blog who had her baby last week, and I changed my mind! I want Tanner to stay nice and comfy in my belly for a while, I am NOT ready for the whole shebang of labor. :/  So my physical and mental state is now pulled to its max!! Tanner is getting heavier and every once and a while, before I get up, I have to hold up by belly so he doesn't push on my bladder. My tummy keeps growing and it measures 44 inches around!! SO crazy... Oh and Steven has been so sweet to be keeping up with me (weight wise) so I do not feel so big! He would be so mad if he knew I wrote that! So we are a big happy family :)